If anything, I think it makes me stronger. Wanting everyone to come home together and alive while we complete a mission is definitely something that makes me fight harder when my team faces an enemy. If I'm strong enough, no one gets taken hostage or killed. But I'd choose to help my captured teammates every time, even if it means failing the mission. All of us returning home safe means we can try again another day or take other missions.

[She hasn't faced that tough decision yet, but it's one that her husband's team did. A decision that nearly cost one their life, but thankfully did not. If they had the bravery to make that choice at 12, certainly she could all these years later.]